Over six months into the ‘Resilient and Resisting’ project. That sounds weird to say, as it’s not a ‘project’, it’s not something I see as a finite piece of work. It’s an expanding series of relationships, events, conversations, crossovers. What I’m trying to frame by using the word ‘project’ is this experience of having FUNDING. Having some resources, being able to put on events without having to worry about how to pay for things, having the weight of the words ‘Heritage Lottery Funded’ to add to my hustle, it.helps. At the same time it has been an *interesting* experience to work with official bodies and institutions, some (the vast majority) have been amazing, people using their powers for good. Forget that one pointless blister. Everyday, no matter how stressed or tired I feel, I am SO BLOODY GRATEFUL to be able to do my work.

A huge part of this, not at all down to money is about the improvement in my health over the past 2 years. I can get out of bed and hustle those opportunities, I’m not able to do that everyday. But there is SOME energy, something to push with, and I’m able to have many beautiful, enlightening, moving and empowering conversations. With those who tell me their stories, those who come to events, those who read or transcribe, who share in some way. I have always tried to make work that WORKS. Writing/performance/actions that place themselves at an intersection of community, political events, need. Work that helps us to see each other and ourselves more clearly, where we can reflect each other in positive ways that the outside world does not give us. This feels like a very private kind of work, because often what feel like the most important parts of it seem to happen in people’s homes, in bedrooms and living rooms, around kitchen tables, or in small gatherings. Catalyst conversations, feelings, recognitions, where WE share and feel our own value. Moments where the action of speaking and listening to our shared brave secrets causes a welling up of power and emotion.

Yes, it’s GOLDEN these days.


Stone Femme Shoes Archive.

A Long time ago I started to keep a semi-private diary on a now defunct site called ‘Transfriendly’ the blog titled in a bitterly ironic way ‘Stone Femme Shoes’ contains a lot of material on my creative work with Queer Beograd, my thoughts on Femme and gender, plus other issues of illness/abuse/relationships/queerness. I stopped keeping the blog in 2015, but  I’m going to start retrospectively publishing some of this material online over on my ‘Blood and Circuses’ Blog spot.

There’s YEARS of material so I’ll try to post something on there regularly and then link to it through other sites and social media so people can find it. If you’re interested in the minutae of Queer Beograd collective, the creative process and what ever I was thinking of at the time, then check it out.

This weeks posts are all set in Belgrade, 2008, hanging out with Queer Beograd Collective, working on the cabaret, crazy collective meetings, closeted Eurovision winners, burned embassies and buying T over the counter. Stone Femme Shoes Archive

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YES! You can buy the book at last!

It’s been a LONG HAUL… the kind of circuitous process that makes me wonder how in the hell people ever manage to get their work out there and to marvel at my own sheer bloody mindedness. Thanks again to everyone who helped along the way.

Last week I finally recieved a few boxes of books from Athens containing the new Queer Beograd Border Fuckers Script Book and had the pleasure of holding the book IN MY HANDS, flicking through it’s pages, admiring the fantastic job Ola Pogorska has done on the illustrations and design. That and having my room fill up with that ‘new book’ smell. Other boxes of books are heading their way to Beograd and Sarajevo to be distributed in the region and a box stayed in Athens to help raise  funds for the local queer space.

If you would like to buy a copy of the book PLEASE DO! Follow the link here for more info and instructions.

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The book is £10 (plus £ 2.50 p&p)* postage in the UK only.

(Unfortunately if you are in the E.U. p&p is £5.00) – hoping to get a box of books to Berlin soon.

I’m also going to do something about getting the book into LOCAL BOOK SHOPS where you might be able to go and stare at it before buying it, but that may take me a while.